The poison of first Love !!

A girl is lucky,
If she is a man's first love.
A man is lucky,
If he is the girl's last.

I walk this wilderness,
As lonely as a dark cloud.
There isn't a silver lining,
In the annals of my fate.

I know how it is to be in love,
As pristine and pure as it can be.
When I was possessed and obsessed,
Your comfort was a bliss.

You have chosen a new path for yourself,
I vacillate between the two extremes.
When I try to get over my past,
You hit me back with your wild innocence.

I have sulked and I have cried,
Those tears I wept were meant for you.
They helped me move on with my life,
Why does now, the past haunt you.

I wish you well, is all I wish,
As much as I am going to miss.
Those thoughts that I etched deep within,
Some memories which truly are mine.

I am trying to reason your eccentricities,
Why you laughed when you cried.
This endless search is my home,
You and me all alone.