Be Happy Sad, Not Sad Sad

There are times when you are happy. Then there are times when you are sad. This is about the times when you are neither of the two. This is about those times when you dont know how you feel. When things happening around you seem so immaterial. When you are "Comfortably Numb" to the world.

You never know when this happens to you or how this happens to you. Therefore you also dont know how you can avoid it or how you can live with it. Its a terrible terrible feeling and you want to get out of it but you are as helpless as a kitten up a tree, not even knowing your right foot from your left.

Time just seems to stand still. You are clueless about what is going on and you can only hope against hope that this feeling just passes away as quickly as it can. The thing that kills you the most is the sympathy and consoling by those who are close to you. You know deep down inside that they are just trying to help but the truth is that on the inside you just get even more irritated and frustrated, both about the fact that you are behaving this way and also about the fact that it might rub off on those trying to cheer you up.

You want to be left alone when you already are the lonliest person on the face of the earth. You dont feel like talking to anyone and you want to scream like you've never screamed before. There is no cure for this, no instant solution that makes you feel high. Mind you, this is not to say that you cannot get high, only that mind has it's own ways of interpreting things and feelings and materialistic things seem to be the least important of them all at that point of time.

Time can heal the biggest of wounds it is said. It could never have been ever more appropriate than in this regard. Whenever you feel this way, the only thing you can do is to let things be and take them as they come. Time as I already told you will stand still as if making fun of your misery and your desperation. In some ways this is a test of your patience and in other ways of your endurance. If you think about it this way, you can overcome this feeling much easier than trying to push yourself over it (you might end up pushing yourself over the edge).

There are times when you are happy. Then there are times when you are sad. This is about those times when you are neither of the two. Time afterall is meant to pass away, it is not meant to stand still. Yes, contrary to the popular belief, it does changes the rate at which it passes away. Sometimes this is excruciatingly slow, other times its really really quick. Remember the fact that in the end its only you who can change your own mind and no one else. It then hinges totally on you, how you choose to live your own life.

I would like everyone to keep smiling at all times (even at the toughest of times). It makes others think what you are upto....Happy living.